I haven’t written a note in a very long while but I have something burning on my heart that it’s impossible for me to sleep.
This has been on my heart for a while now but haven’t had anything set me off to start to verbalise what I know the Spirits been pressing on my heart. Until now.
I just want to firstly say and I pray that as I write this my heart would be filled with and overflowing with love. I sincerely write this with nothing but love in my heart and the last thing I want to do is offend or hurt people. Just be honest with yourselves and truthful with what you have seen and experienced. Also, in no way or form am I saying this as a person who has it altogether because this honestly began as God speaking to my heart about my own issues.
The concept we have been taught since we were able to speak, hear or read anything in this world is that there is not enough.
If Matthew gets the jelly bean, there is one less jelly bean in the jar for you, and a decreased chance of you getting picked to eat a jelly bean.
That everyone you see around you, is secretly and will eventually become your competitor for something there will only be one left of.
That there are only certain number of people that will be chosen for a selective school, a certain number of people who will win the free mars bar, a certain number of people who can get that car.
Economics is built on the scarcity principle which is the belief that there is not ‘enough’ to go around. Everything in our society is built on this. The way we buy and sell - our entire worldview and life on earth is shaped by this paradigm.
But this is not the nature or way of God.
I kept getting led to the time where Jesus multiplied bread and fish to feed 5000. He did this crazy feeding thing two times, and each time there were basketfuls of bread left over after every single person was not only fed but filled. They were so stuffed it was basically a food coma for all of them. I kept wondering why the heck would you leave 12 baskets?
Is Maths not Gods’ forte? Did God shop at Costco? Is God wasteful? Why were there so much food left over if it was just about feeding people?
It is because it is God’s nature. God is a God of abundance. Of MORE THAN ENOUGH.
Look at the heavens. Look at the billions of stars in just one galaxy. Seriously go watch one minute of a Youtube video of the universe.
How much sky do we need?
One little blue ball of earth and God made a freaking load of sky.
Did you know, the reason why scientists are on this crazy expensive, extensive quest to search for other signs of life, is not because they want to believe in aliens – its because of the theory that if earth was the only planet with life the entire universe is way too oversized.
Basically, our sock-drawer-sized house is way too small for our Buckingham Palace universe.
That is the nature of our extravagant, more than enough, everythings-in-my-really-big-hand God.
That’s his nature. Our God is a King. He is a King of more than enough.
He lacks nothing. Nothing is too much for him.
God is love.
LOVE. We have only experienced love for maybe 6 months max, if we are lucky. Maybe a few weeks with our family at best.
But God IS LOVE. Not the feeling we flippantly call love.
LOVE is a being. It is a person. It is God.
And He has enough love to love me, not only for a year, or a decade, or a lifetime but enough love to love me through sin, through death and through eternity.
My God has so much love, that he CAN and WILL and DOES love me forever. FOREVER. Constant. Unchanging. Undying. Forever.
And not only does He have enough love to love me forever, but He made billions of people to love, because that’s how BIG His love really is.
He could make people forever and He could still love each of them and all of them, forever and ever.
Do we KNOW this? Do I KNOW it in my heart, in my mind, in my spirit, with all my strength and soul KNOW it?
Sure, I know it.
Then Bob gets a promotion. Oh? What about me.
Bill gets gold dust. Pfft why Bill?
Susie gets spiritual gifts. Disappoint creeps in.
John gets manifestations all the time. Comparisons creep in.
Jill writes a book. Bitterness rising.
The other church gets heavenly gems. Jealously blinding.
Why do we feel jealously, competition, bitterness and spite towards each other or other churches? Why are we constantly comparing ourselves to other ministries or other leaders or teachers or whatever else?
Why is it that you can’t feel genuinely happy for other people when God blesses them? Or if you do at the beginning, how come that joy gets snatched away? Why does insecurity and pride rob us of truly loving one other and regarding each other higher than ourselves? Why are we always proving ourselves to God, to the pastors, or to the world?
Why do we ‘own’ revelations and gifts God has graciously given us. Why do we fight to be recognised that God ‘told me first’ Or I’ve been to that conference, heard that word, got that book.
There is a massive poverty mindset in the church.
We actually believe there is not enough.
That there is not enough Revelation of God, there is not enough gifts, there is not enough blessing, there is not enough attention, there is not enough love.
All of our pains, and jealousies and bondages stem from a skewed view of the nature and abundance of God.
There is more. God always has more. He loves you. You are ROYALTY. You are his chosen one. His Beloved one.
YOU ARE ROYALTY.
You have everything. He has given you everything. He has given you himself. He has given you His son.
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” Romans 12:2
“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.” Romans 12:2 NLT
We are not fighting and in competition for a scarce resource of Gods’ love and blessing. There is MORE THAN ENOUGH for all of us.
Ask for a mind blowing, heart-changing, paradigm shifting revelation of Gods’ abundant love for you.
When you are filled and overflowing – that’s the only place we can truly rejoice and bless others and get to the place where we will genuinely want people to ‘surpass’ us.
Gods heart for his church is for a people who honestly cry out from their hearts that He would bless their enemies with thousand-folds more than they have received from the Lord. More love for Bob, more blessings for Jill, more favour in John’s life, more joy in Bill.
To cry out that God would use them more than God would use you. For the heart to truly lay your life down, that we would truly REJOICE that GOD IS BEING GLORFIED and that the truth is known, not fussing about who is being used to do it.